Look at this!  I got a new theme. I made it myself in my new Artisteer software Jerry bought me.  It took about 5 minutes to do.  And then another 5 days to figure out how to install it on WordPress.  Jerry bought me another neat surprise which I’m working on.  Things are changing my friends.  Things are changing…

I think I’m having a mid-life crisis.  I’ve heard about these things but never really knew what it was all about.  Now that I know, I’ve got to say, it’s not all that exciting. 

I am coming to this slow acceptance that this is it.  This is my life. It’s not a bad life.  In fact it’s a pretty good life with marriage to a great guy and a steady paycheck from a fabulous job.  But that sense of anticipation I always used to have, that feeling that I’m working toward something, that’s gone.  Maybe if I had kids who were graduating from high school or something I’d understand why I was feeling this way but since I don’t it’s kind of confusing.  Instead I just keep realizing that this is it.  This is my life. 

The feelings that come with this are kind of like a mixture of boredom and depression with a general lack of interest in anything.  I’m guessing that some people may not tolerate the boredom too well and end up doing something new and different, like the guy who buys a motorcycle (ahem) or the woman who goes back to college.  Or people who seem to have an constant stream of drama in their lives with divorce, family drama, troubles at work or constant financial worries.  I realize there are things in life we can’t control, but maybe sometimes people create unnecessary drama because they don’t want to deal with the eventual reality that this is it?  This is life.

Luckily for me, as well as my husband and co-workers, I’m kind of a chicken so doing something crazy to shake things up is unlikely.  I may buy an outrageous pair of shoes or learn to cook, but otherwise I think I’ll keep the life changing drama to a minimum and ride this out because acceptance of your own reality is the only way to know where you really belong in this world.  And this is it.  This is my life. 

True statement made by me on the phone the other day to my mom:  If you don’t know the difference between writing on someone’s wall and sending a private email maybe you shouldn’t be using Facebook.

This was not said because some horrible family secret was made public.  This was actually part of a broader conversation about technology and the internet.  For some reason my mom, who is very sweet and the best mom a kid could have by the way, thinks I’m some kind of expert on these things.  That shows you how much she knows. 

She may also be reading this right now. 

Hey Mom! Just in case you are reading this right now, this is not an email.  It’s also not Facebook.  This is a blog…which the whole world can see…but only 3 people read.  But the whole world could read it if they wanted.  Even China, as long as I don’t say anything negative about their government, which I maybe just did, so probably not China now. 

Anyone out there reading this who wants to say hi to my mom, please do so in the comments section.  It will confuse the hell out of her but it would be really nice.